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Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Managing Conflict
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Personal learning Environment (PLE)
How it all began
I`ve never thought of myself as shy, at times I can be quite the opposite but as a result of the post graduate course I recently completed with Otago Polytechnic I acquired some hidden learning, or not so hidden as all will be revealed. This learning was prompted by Sarah Stewart the course tutor, she used the blogging feature to deliver course material and Elluminate to provide online 'live' classroom like tutorials on a weekly basis. All of these opened up a new world of learning and opportunities for networking and it was to set in my mind that my working future I want to become a tutor.
To start with and bookmarking
I sat back for the first few weeks but following my surgery, I began to tinker with the keyboard and began by setting up a blog. http://midwifeblogger.blogspot.com/. This did have some retitling and has undergone some 'fiddling' with but the journey of learning was just beginning. I received some immediate gratification for my daily pondering and all it resulted in was feeding my hunger for more. During the course Sarah had mentioned delicious, a bookmarking site which instead of saving any interesting articles to my favourites on the computer I just bookmarked them and it also means you can be a part of a network of individuals all sharing bookmarks. this obviously can be useful for students and cut down on research time. It was only after I connected up with Anne Cunningham through reading Sarah`s blog, that I discovered Diigo which I find is a much better bookmarking site because I can look up a reference, read an article and then blog about it and then import that blog into my E portfolio which demonstrates that I have looked up a piece of work and I am reflecting on how it may or may not affect my practice.
E portfolio
Which brings me on to E portfolio. I have had for years a paper portfolio, yet the most it held was my certificates, I was dreading the call up for audit. Taking it to my Midwifery Standards Review, I tended to hold it tightly on my lap and I was only ever fortunate enough to have someone ask is that your portfolio at which point I would just nod in acknowledgement but my arms would tighten around it defensively and no one would look at it. I found it a daunting prospect opening it and seeing the listed tasks that needed to be done and I tended to think of it as an uninspiring thing to look at. Since the course I`ve decided I`m more creative and obviously I needed a more creative space to keep updating. I was inspired to set up an E portfolio space at http://midwifepam.wikispaces.com/. This is because I enjoyed the layout more at Wiki and I can create individual pages. The ability to embed video footage into the wiki space is easier to manage than the blogger one, personally I`ve not been able to embed any video`s to blogger other than on the side bar.
Then came twitter I signed up an account because I was going for an interview with Christchurch Polytechnic for a midwife tutor post supporting students and I included it on my presentation. I signed up but left it alone for a while as I couldn`t quite figure it out or why it was there but after spending some time in the space I`ve found it really useful. I`ve yet to make the bold move of making myself public as I still hold on to some deep seated fear that some madman is gonna track me down and murder me in my sleep! I did want to embed the video showing you the usefulness of twitter here but it wouldn`t happen for me.
Other creative elements
I also have a YouTube account which has meant I can upload videos and put them into my E portfolio and I can be more personal and give greater insight into my life. I was then nosing around on the recent Diigo bookmarks and came across http://www.piclits.com/ and this hugely appealed to my poetry creative side as there are various pictures and you can create poems with the words suggested onto the photo and then embed them on your blog. It is another useful tool for reflection. I also have a place at slideshare where I can load my slides up and then embed them into my blogs and E portfolio to share with others this then led to a comment being left by the WiZiQ team and I went along and had a look there. This is a place not only to load slides but to also gain free access to online classroom space for up to 50 people. So I am also signed up there.
So it comes to pass that I now have a large network to keep track of, lots of blogs to read and messages to catch up with and today I have learned from Sue Waters talks about the process of managing a Personal Learning Network
http://theedublogger.edublogs.org/2008/12/28/need-help-building-your-personal-learning-network-pln/
I use igoogle to try and keep as much in one place as possible along with google reader but I guess that may change.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Christmas 2008
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Reflecting on Publicity
I was honored to have been mentioned in the above newspaper article, where a woman talks about the care I gave her during her pregnancy, labour, birth and postnatally. It did automatically leave me feeling a little uncomfortable whilst at the same time feeling proud that there was some positive midwifery reporting for a change. I`m also relieved to not be dreading the return of her feedback form on my performance.
I believe her comments reinforce in this instance how I full filled Competency Two of entry to the register of Midwives,
"The midwife applies comprehensive theoretical and scientific knowledge with the affective and technical skills needed to provide effective and safe midwifery care."
I was left to reflect and wonder, however, how many of my women were reading that article and saying but she was no good for me and I wouldn`t book with her again. That is the embarrassing part but then I realise that we all to often find it easier to live with criticism than it is to revel in our achievements.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
ARCHI - Midwifery Led Education into High Schools
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Meeting the needs of pregnant teenagers across NHS Greater Glasgow & Clyde
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Getting maternity services right for pregnant teenagers and young fathers
Posted from Diigo. The rest of my favorite links are here.
I am really trying to get to grips with improving the service of delivering good antenatal classes to the young mums of Marlborough. These classes have to be informative and engaging and offer some sort of incentive to attend. we have already found that attendance is better with the weekend style of delivery and better for us if we provide the classes 9am-1pm over 3 Saturday mornings.
Lizzie Smith, Teenage Pregnancy Midwife, Birmingham Heartlands Hospital also provides a 4-6pm drop in style of class with other health professionals delivering sessions on smoke cessation, sexual health and contraception. She recognises the need for good advertising and good funding.
Text messaging service
Posted from Diigo. The rest of my favorite links are here.
I am currently looking at how I can improve attendance of my young mums at the antenatal course which I am responsible for providing.
Lizzie Smith, Teenage Pregnancy Midwife, Birmingham Heartlands Hospital in the Uk describes in a newsletter how she purchased a web based texting programme. The texting service reminds them about the group and also sends out pregnancy information sound bites.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Friday, December 19, 2008
Ahhhhhhhhhh School Holidays
By 8.30 this morning I had a sore throat and was a stamping raging bull, the girls were fighting and there was lots of yelling, oh my god there is six weeks of this.
I have been putting off cleaning the girls rooms and I have lived in fear of entering, there was no visible space on either bedroom floor and I refused to go in and do it. So this morning was about not putting up the Christmas tree until the girls tidied their rooms. The usual groans and moans ensued with pulling faces and dragging feet they both plonked themselves in the middle of their respective floors playing with the nearest toy they could find.
I wondered what I could do to motivate them and in the end I said that whilst I had my rooms to tidy we would declare it a race and the first to finish would get a large muffin of choice ( you know the ones from New World in the pack of four). Well they both knew that the loser would end up with the bran and sultana muffin and not the smartie one, ohhh the horror.
Amazingly, it worked, by 10.30 I had vacuumed both their rooms, vacuum intact with nothing stuck up it and their beds were made, happy mum and happy kids.
The youngest won the muffin race.
I`ve been off to the warehouse and bought crayons and pencils and paper and peace for the moment is restored. They are keen though to take my character through second life they are fasinated to see her fly!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
How much to give, how much to hold back?
I must admit its lovely to go to bed without that last minute panic conversation between my husband and I, which included, "Where`s my phone?" or just wondering off to sleep to realise its not on the bedside table and I`m too tired to get out of bed and because he is near the door I spend 10mins convincing him to go and get it for me. I sleep well now knowing that it is only the pets and children who will wake me from my slumber.
It was always women who were on subsequent pregnancies that used to get particularly attached to me because they used to compare me with previous midwives and say how open I was. This aspect tended to make me popular in the community but now I feel that I gave too much, opened myself up to each persons emotional need and absorbed it which I believe is what drained me the most.
So how do we learn to hold back and keep ourselves intact? I`m not sure it is possible, the women want it but do they have the right to demand it?
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Ahhh such is life!


Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Disappointed
Friday, December 12, 2008
Superstitions
Let me explain, I had a special event to attend, I can`t yet tell you what, I may jinx the process so that story will have to wait but the event involved needing some good luck. I wonder if any of you have heard the rhyme about magpies?
Monday, December 8, 2008
Christmas is coming
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Quantum Solace
From the moment the action starts I found myself whincing and pulling my face as Daniel Craig chased the bad guy jumping through doorways and smashing through glass, this stuntman action really makes you feel a part of the action like no other Bond movies have. I found myself whincing thinking, `God that must hurt,` and ducking in my seat, hats off to the makers of the movie who really made me feel a part of it.
One of my favourite lines was when Judy Dench as `M` is walking through the corridors of MI6 being briefed and she is approached by someone trying to give her some inconsequencial information and someone turns to him and says, `Don`t she`s not in the mood.` Yes, Judy Dench is brilliant as `M` and she has the character much more in the thick of the action than the stuffy old `M` we used to see. She is typical of most female leaders keeping herself appraised of all the action as it happens and always being in control although with Bond it wouldn`t surprise me if she just gives him a knock over the head like any matriarcal figure would do to a wayward teenager.
Love Interest
The critics don`t seem to understand that Daniel Craig is playing the early Bond without polish and this film is connected to Casino Royale, it is without surprise then that he doesn`t fall madly in love with the leading character because as women we would feel that would be a betrayal of the feelings he had for Vespa in Casino Royale. If he had how are we supposed to trust when he is in love or not and we would certainly lose respect for him if he was so fickle. We do forgive him, his little tryst with the MI6 office worker, after all he is a man and he has needs. I do enjoy the referrance to Goldfinger with the manner in which she died.
Bad guy
The crtics mentioned that the bad guy was weak and just some `small town criminal just stealing the water supplies of the needy`. Why should this come as any surprise, we had just a bank robber in Goldfinger who happened to just want to knock off Fort Knox and a diamond thief in Diamonds are Forever but they seemed to miss that he is part of a much bigger network of bad guys which gives Bond more problems to deal with in the future. This aspect of the film seemed to be as much about laying down a future foundation as about the one bad guy that Bond is concentrating on in this film.
The only thing I would like to mentioned is that when Bond is entering a suspects apartment I wouldn`t expect him to ever turn his back on the room whilst he closes the door, he may have put himself at unnecessary risk. The action was so fast in that room that whereas the Bond played by Sean Connery we would have known that he heard the knife click and casually been ready for it, in this film I`m not so sure that Daniel Craig`s Bond was ready. Again this can just be a referrance to Bond`s lack of polish or it is a reflection on the fast action filming style of the movie.
I do enjoy the consistencies in wardrobe, the blood stain on the white shirt which got drier and drier and darker and darker. There was also the marks on Bond`s chest, when we saw it, which showed the scratches and bruises of those close up fights.
Technology
The critics mentioned the lack of gadgets, did they not notice the computer technology at MI6 or the phone technology? I almost despaired when I saw the Austin Martin get wrecked in what was one of the most exciting car chases I`ve seen for a while. I found myself involuntarily swinging from side to side in my seat trying to avoid a collision.
Character of Bond
In this movie we see Daniel Craig really bringing some depth to the character of Bond, those cool blue eyes which fail to hide the heartbrake of the death of Vespa and we begin to see the reason for some heavy drinking. The sorrow he portrays as he holds his friend in the middle of the street is marvelous. He wears his tux well and manages to pull of the wearing of a cardigan to the degree that I think I need to buy my husband one.
CIA
In this movie we see the real side of the CIA, all too often their idea of a secret service is to meddle in the governments of other countries all in the name of oil. I can`t honestly remember if this loose end was tried up in the film but maybe something will come to light in further movies. The department head of the CIA was a slimey individual, easy to hate and actually not well acted
Point to question
I`m just not sure that the large building housing the bad guys at the end was a good way to go. The relevance to the plot was not explained well and it seemed that someone thought,`Oh we forgot about having bad guy place to blow up at the end so we will just stick this together.` It seemed to me that somehow the connection of this building to the story had ended up on the cutting room floor and they hoped that noone would notice that it seemed to bear no relevance to what was going on. I had no idea who owned it or the relevance of what appeared to be gas tanks in the wall. There was a tiny referrance in a conversation between two bad guys but it was easily missed.
Annoying habit
Wouldn`t you just love to educate properly an American audience then we wouldn`t have to but up with a title shot everytime we move cities which say London, England or Rome, Italy. It really gets on my nerves.
Anyhow thats my take on the movie, its worth watching and I certainly look forward to adding it to my DVD collection when it is released.



